anyone know what I mean??? well i know our friends Austin and Kristine know exactly what I mean but there is some sort of pressure that happens about now... (well maybe earlier for most folks but about now for me which could be considered late i guess)..... about having children. ESPECIALLY if you've been married for 6 years and happily married and then "why the F*&% havent you guys had kids yet???"
Good question I think. Why havent we? everyone else is or has. It seems like the next step... thing to do... the way its meant to be.
So why is the decision so hard??? Are we ready? We're still too selfish! I wont be a good mother! Cam's scared of children! (lol seriously but cute) Will I even be able to? every other mother out there will judge me/us and our parenting style. Would we adopt? After watching the whole adoption process happen, we're not sure if we want or could handle the experience....
SO in conclusion if you have the miracle answer PLEASE SHARE!!!
Otherwise we'll work it out. i have all the faith in the world that the universe will give me (us) what is meant to be so I will trust in that process and see. I have had an amazing life so far and my angels have looked after me brilliantly this far so I am going to have faith in that same process.
Our future WITH kids = life full of family, love, growth, fun, ups and downs, patience, sacrifice, rewarding and grandkids.
Our future WITHOUT kids = lots of travel, freedom to be random..... wow thats all i can think of right now.... I love both these things but thats it??? really?? I should do these kind of lists more often....ha!
What does our future hold?????? I guess we'll all find out one day wont we.
(And if you are a future teller and see us with or without children... fill me in...ha)
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Hey Lee,
Ah the baby debate. The only thing I can possibly say in response to this post is that being a Mommy is the hardest but most fulfilling job of my life. Watching Silas grow up and learn is amazing... and ya know what, those feelings of "do I know how to be a Mom?", & "Is everyone judging my parenting?"... they never really go away, but they do fade into the background when you realize that that little baby loves you and that in their eyes you are the best Mommy in the world!
There are many days where I think... man I wish I would have done this...or I wish I would have done that before having a child, but in all honesty, I don't think I would really want it any other way.
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