Saturday, November 1, 2008
Australian Halloween
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
A new love
View from the balcony. The morning clouds
The deck and pool area
My cabana boy cleaning the pool walking along the ledge... scary!!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Willfulness and Willingness
And I recently had a discussion with a wonderful and wise woman about willingness and willfulness. And I wanted to share this with everyone and get you thinking about what you do and how you can have more willingness and less willfulness. Here are some web definitions to start the process.
WILLFULNESS -
1. unruliness: the trait of being prone to disobedience and lack of discipline
2.The quality or state of being stubbornly unyielding
WILFUL -
1. Said or done on purpose; deliberate.
2. Obstinately bent on having one's own way
WILLING -
1. Disposed or inclined; prepared: I am willing to overlook your mistakes.
2. Acting or ready to act gladly; eagerly compliant:
3. Done, given, accepted, or borne voluntarily or ungrudgingly.
4. Of or relating to exercise of the will; volitional.
WILLINGNESS - The quality or state of being willing; free choice or consent of the will; freedom from reluctance; readiness of the mind to do
We had a great conversation that has left me thinking for days now about the difference between being wilful and being willing. And I think (in my opinion and thoughts at this time) that most people and society is wilful. That need to control or "make things happen" or "my way or the highway" or "I'm right and you are wrong". Instead of trust and ease that things "will" just happen. We discussed how to be more willing would involve alot of trust which in turn would give us so much freedom. WOW freedom to just be. To trust you will be ok and be willing to accept everyone and everything. To live in the now and trust you will be taken care of. Or on the other hand to be wilful and fight everyone and everything.
Anyway this is my new thing right now. Wilful or willing. Which do you have most in your life??? Think about being more willing and what would that look like??
I have been very willing to let my life be right now. and I do really trust that everything will work out ok. Do you think I'm crazy? I'd love to know what you think...... and I'll fill you in as i keep researching and thinking about this myself
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Happy Birthday
Cam loves his diving...
Cam beside the Wobbegong sharks at Julian Rocks
Cam getting his tattoo from our buddy Dave at Sharky's Tattoo
Cam turned 25 on Sept 28th and it has been an amazing weekend. And one of those things is his best friend Shawny got him a tattoo. Shawn designed it and the whole tattoo had great meaning of Cam and his passion of music as well as the connection of Shawn and Cams childhood. Its very cool. It was also Shawns 25th birthady on Sept 26th so we bought Shawn a dive trip out to Julian Rocks. Great weekend.Saturday, September 27, 2008
Family fun!!
Cam at the arches at the beginning of the Pyramid hike....
View from top of Mount Warning..... soooooo amazing!!
Cam and I at top of the Pyramids.
Cam and Em at one of the wineries. Brother/sisterly love
Em, Rick and Cam at the top of Bald Rock.
At the start of Bald Rock. with the added guts hanging out....ha!! Rick looks disgusted!!
Rick, Em and Cam on the chain on the hike down from Mount Warning. Killer man!!
Well Rick and Emily have been here for 2 weeks and I must say we have had some fun and ALOT of sweating. yes sweating. If we dont climb a mountain every day...... something just doesnt feel right. In 5 days we climbed 3 mountains. Mount Warning, Pyramids and Bald Rock. Very beautiful and a great experience. We went on a 5 day road trip and traveled north up to Stanthorpe and then started back south doing a winery tour called the Granite Belt. Good thing I dont like wine cause these Wiebes LOVE their wine. And after doing 2 or 3 wineries in a row..... driving isnt a good idea. So I drove and the Wiebes (excluding me) drank. And learnt alot about the best ways to make wine so Rick can go home and put his new knowledge into practice.
Rick and Cam have done lots of diving. Although I think those guys could keep diving every day, all day and be very content.
Em and I have had some GREAT quality time. Talking, getting to know each other even better and sharing ideas and experiences.
We had a house full of people last night for a combo of Cam and Shawns 25th birthdays. That was fun and delicious. And of course ended with a competitive, trash talking game of Asshole.
Its Cam's official birthday tomorrow. He has already been super spoilt. he's a happy guy. Having his dad and sister here and of course all the goodies. He got a dive computer from his parents and a dive light from Em and Steve so he is set up for success on the dive front. Shawn designed and got him a tattoo. It is on his left calf. Very cool. and more pressies for tomorrow.
anyway thats it for now.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
If I dont show or tell you enough... I love and appreciate you
I realize that we as humans needs to be more grateful and appreciate what we have RIGHT NOW!! And if someone in your life does not fill up your love tank and energise you then ask yourself.... why do you have them in your life?? What are they giving you?? What are you giving them?? Is it a balanced relationship??
If no, then why do we do it???
Life is too short to have negative energy around or as I call it "leeches" and this is my big new lesson in life.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Look into your crystal ball.....
Soooo much happening it can make us feel dizzy. So if anyone has the wonderful ability to see into the future, and you can see Cam and I... please let us know as we have NO FRICKEN IDEA!!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Oliver heaven
Daddy and Oli hanging out at the swimming spot. Throw the damn rock already is what Oli is thinking.
So sure enough Oliver goes out swimming and Cam and I sit in the sunshine and relax. There are no houses or other people around so its peaceful. Its a great place where we can go and have some time alone and just hang out together without interruption. Its perfect. I am sure if Oliver had an idea what heaven was.... this spot would be it!!
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Thank you Starbucks
Kylie, Sarah and Cale. Part of my amazing team.
Alison(faithful and loyal customer and now a friend forever) and Kevin 08
Bourne.........Jason Bourne
Is so much time on your hands a good thing???
Why .....you are thinking.....
well it will be very hard for me to go get a so called good job with only 9 weeks and 2 days until Cam graduates. Cam will then be applying all over the globe and then we will be moving AGAIN. So me starting a "real" job would be silly. Thats what we decided. And thats what everyone else seems to agree with. One thing though...... I'M GOING CRAZY!!!
How the hell do people do it?? I have been unemployed for 12 days and it feels like a life time.
BUT on the positive side I am having lots of time to think. And we all know I'm a thinker. And Cam and I are having some awesome discussions about our lives.
What do we like...... what do we dislike..... and what are we going to do about it........
If there is one thing I have truly learnt over the last couple years is that I am responsible for me and me only. I cant control others or make them do things or change them. I can accept them or not. If I accept then i need to love and support..... if I dont accept then I need to let it go.
And the funny thing is that "let it go" is so damn hard to do. But this is where I am right now. Loving and supporting or trying to let go.
Friday, August 8, 2008
Posers!!
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Lee and Starbucks
thank you to those of you that have been reaching out to Cam and I over this last few days. And for those who dont listen, watch or read the news..... Starbucks Australia has decided to close 61 of the 84 stores in Oz and one of those 61 just happened to my beautiful Ballina store.
Of course I was shocked and very upset by the decision with me and my team sharing many many tears and the worry about "what now" and the whole bullshit thing about needing money to live.
BUT
I am happy to report that I am doing fine and even happier to report that every single one of my team have either gotten other jobs or are in the process of picking a new job. Yes I use the word picking because we have been approached and reached out to by SOOOOOOOO many other businesses offering work that they are lucky enough to have a choice of what they want to do next. That makes me so happy and proud of them as it is a testament to their hard work and proves what a great bunch they were.
As for me, I am also very lucky to have many offers on the table and very blessed for all of them. I guess my choice is what is best for Cam and I at this time in our lives.... with him graduating in 11 weeks and me being FRICKEN EXHAUSTED!! So I'll see where life takes me but I do know I plan some good quality beach time, playing with Oliver and loving my husband. (Corny I know but very true).
So for now I have one last day at my store tomorrow watching the trucks take everything away (insert tears here) and then I am officially done. Of course I am throwing a massive bash at my house next weekend for all ex-Starbucks partners so that'll be fun and then I am free. So we'll see.........
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
Customer Service WHAT?????
I would be bloody embrassed if those were my staff.
I am embrassed for the image this protrays to all the tourists that all come to Byron Bay thinking this is the best damn place in Australia and they get served by people who have the personality of a rotten egg. AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Back where it all began
Me not happy about packing AGAIN!! But its worth it
Oliver and Charlie enjoying their new beach
The dining room, kitchen and down the hall. There are 2 bedrooms along the right of the hall and then our bedroom at the end of the hall
This is the sharow in Cam and I's bathroom. Its very open. Creepy at first but now loving the whole nature thing
Anyway we have officially moved. We have left bitter ol Ballina and now thriving back where we started in Suffolk Park (Byron Bay). We are living exactly 4 blocks from our old house and lucky for us its 4 blocks closer to the beach. We are about 50meters from the sand of Tallows Beach. Its AWESOME to be back. Cam and I get up every morning and go for a nice walk along the beach with Oliver before starting every day. We have seen the reliable and amazing dolphins jumping and playing in the waves as we walk along. And we are constantly saying aloud "man this is where we live!!!" with a look of amazement on our faces.
Other than the beach (which of course we are LOVING) the new house is great too. Its smaller than our Ballina house but nice. Its got an 8 person hot tub which has been a huge hit so far. And of course we are planning a Hot Tub party in the next couple weeks.
We have moved here with 2 friends Laura and Quintin for those that didnt know. Friends from Canada who are here for awhile. They also have their dog Charlie. Oliver has surprisingly taken quite well to Charlie which is great. Oliver being the snob he is, we were worried how it would go. But all is well.
Anyway we have a new address and phone number now. I'll email this info out next.
Hot Tub party coming soon. You better be there.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Lets see how good my memory is
Next Day - we decide to go to main street and pay for our tours. Walk into one place and the woman was amazingly wonderful. Her name was Alison Christian.
Now for a quick tidbit on Norfolk Island - the island is mostly populated by 8 main families. These eight families are from the men who held Mutiny on the Bounty and their families. 3 of these men - Fletcher Christian, John Adams and the other had slipped my mind (bloody memory), all married and had children with women from Tahiti while they were there (dont want to explain too much into that but the Bounty spend 3 months in Tahiti before they left and then half the ship men on the Bounty held a Mutiny and turned around to go back to Tahiti to get their women).
anyway back to Alison Christian. We were sitting there having some laughs and paying for our tour when she and another gentleman named John Christian (yes seriously... everyone just about has the same last name) made a smart ass comment about the Evans family.
Now of course being an Evans I got defensive and of course lippy back. WELL... this is where it all began.
I wish I was better at writing and able to tell you all the amazing events that happened over the next 4 days. When Alison found out I was an Evans she had me on the phone within 2 minutes with another family member Nellie Evans. SERIOUSLY!! 2 minutes I am not exaggerating. I spoke with Nellie and then another Evans named Mitch. It was all very strange and overwhelming so i just rolled with the punches and went with whatever happened next. Well what happened was Cam and I went hiking (sooooooo beautiful) and when we got back to our hotel room.... the phone was ringing. SERIOUSLY!! it was hilarious. We answered of course and I spoke with Lou Evans. All these Evans are related somewhere in my past. Lou arranged for Cam and I to sit with the Evans table the next day at Bounty/Anniversary Day.
This day was the whole reason Cam and I went to Norfolk when we did. Every year on June 8th they celebrate the arrival of the mutineers of the bounty and their families arriving on Norfolk Island. Its a huge day where they re-enact the arrival (everyone is all dressed up in old school gear) and then march through town. Go to the grave yard and remember their loved ones and then go to Government House for morning tea. Then all the families have a lunch and celebrate and pig out. Now the amazing thing about this whole day is you must be a family to take part which of course I am. So we were able to join the lunch with all the other families.
Honestly the next day I was really quite nervous. I didnt know what to expect and I felt like I was about to have the answer to soo many questions I have always had about my life which was exciting but freaky as well. We went down to watch the re-enactment and the whole march. Then we waited for the lunch to start.
The lunch was held in this open air compound and when you walked in the main families could be found in each corner with the smaller families in the middle. The Evans were in the back left corner. As we walked up I could tell they knew exactly who I was. They were super friendly and the introductions took forever. There were TONS of people. and TONS of food. It was great to hang out and get to know each other and really for me to sit back and observe everything happening. It was great. In good islander style there were many many beers and drinking became the number one activity. It was fun.
In this whole process we met members of the other families and one man in particular named Norm Quintall. Such a nice man. He was head of security at the Norfolk airport. Again they were very generous and we talked with the Quintalls and Norm for about an hour before we took off. Norm was really adamant that we take his car keys and use his car instead of the rental. I mean this island the the people are something else. Something I have always hoped there was somewhere like this out there. So friendly. Safety is never a concern. generous, respectful, very culturally involved and proud. The highest speed limit is 50kms/hr, there are 4 street lights on the whole island, everyone is definitely on island time and cows have the right away. And they do not like moving for you. they take their time that for sure. Its my absolute favourite place.
Over the next few days I met more Evans family, got to see our family flag (aka family tree that is on a flag) and would be walking down main street and have people calling my name out to come meet and talk to me. SOOOOO COOL!!!
I learnt more about where I come from in 5 days than I thought was possible. If we had stayed longer I would have met so many more family members and learnt so much more about my background. But now I know which sailor from the Bounty I am from and that he has one of the main men involved with the Mutiny. he is also one of the 3 men who fell in love, married and had babies with one of the Tahitian women and I even know her name. So I can now connect my blood line to my family in Tahiti. I learnt how my looks is soooo very Tahitian and is still very predominant in my appearance and now I must go to Tahiti to finish my search. Cam has made me promise I dont book a trip to Tahiti while he is still in school so he graduates Oct 17th so close after then I MUST go to Tahiti and keep researching and discovering my (Evans) history. Anyone want to meet us in Tahiti?? Towards end of the year??
And to finish the perfect trip……. We had checked in at the airport to return to Australia and were going through security and you’ll never guess who we ran into…our buddy Norm. So it was nice to say our goodbyes to him and of course spoke of staying in touch and hopefully meeting again one day. Right before we were to board the plane, a man came up to us and told us we had to wait till last to get on and they had moved our seats to 1A and 1B. So I was pumped thinking we got an emergency exit. Well when we went through and entered the plane we had been bumped to business class. OH YEAH BABY!!!! It was AMAZING!! It was the best flight I have ever had and business class is bloody amazing. Now I don’t know if I can ever go back…ha!!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Pictures from Norfolk
My roots
Now why would we go to this island?? Well for anyone who really knows me, who I am, my skin colour and appearance and where I come from has always been HUGE questions and parts of my life. Well Norfolk was my first step into finding out some answers to questions I have always had. Here's some history for you.
Most people know about the H.M.S Bounty or most know it by The Muitny on the Bounty. Well I m a direct descendent of John Adams (who went under the name Alexander Smith, which is a whole other story in itself....ha!!) who was one of the seamen that took mutiny over this ship. Anyway the reason they mutinied was because they had been in Tahiti and there the men had fallin in love with the Tahitian women. 2 of the men (Fletcher Christian and John Adams) had married and their wives were pregnant when they left Tahiti to continue their journey to the West Indies. BUT of course the men wanted to go back so they held a mutiny took over the ship and turned around and went back for their women.
Now they were smart enough to know they couldnt stay in tahiti cause they would come looking for them. So they took their wives, 12 tahitian women, 6 tahitian men and feld. Long story short they ended up in Pitcairn Island. where they stayed for many years until the island which is also extremely tiny was becoming to over populated and the left and arrived in Norfolk Island on June 8 1856. This date is known as Bounty Day or Anniversary Day. This is a large part of why Cam and I went over at this time so we could see and be apart of the day and celebrations.
How our trip unfolds I will have to write again tomorrow. its a long but awesome funny story I will share. But I am dead tired right now so dont feel up to wirting tonight. Until tomorrow......
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Near death experience...
Monday, May 26, 2008
Whats important in life???
And the stuff is sooo stupid, selfish and irrelevant that you can not believe that people seriously have nothing better to do with their time and energy.
What the f#@$ is going on?? People freaking out about coffee, someone cutting them off or the fact that you had to go a different way with your boat cause someone parked on the street made it more difficult for you... forget the fact that there are wars happening, child abuse, starvation, victims of China with no homes... and all the other current suffers of natural disasters...... do I need to go on cause I sure as heck can.
Can we all please look outside our own world and start having some respect, love and compassion for each other.
Read a New Earth by Eckhart Tolle and all start loving each other... and no I have not become a major hippie living here.... just think the hippies may have had some things very right!!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Partying like teenagers
Well I would say it has been years...yes seriously... years since I have gone on a drunken bender. We have just returned from this druken bender and I must say I am doing much much better than I thought I would be. Cam and I have just returned from Port Douglas where we attended the Tropical and Rainforest Carnival. We went with 2 friends Alison and Breanna. We spent 1 night in Cairns, 2 nights in Port Douglas and 1 night in Trinity Beach. We had sooooo much fun. Crazy, drunk fun and it felt good. Is that immature?? Who cares!!! We all had a blast, forgot about our stresses, got crazy and got to spend some great time with our 2 friends.